Dear Crissy

Nothing can rival this feeling

beautiful baby

There is something pretty special about those first staring contests between mother and child.

Moms, you know what I am talking about. Your baby is nursing, and looking up into your eyes as if she can see right down into the heart of everything you are, and then she stops sucking and cracks a little grin. It is the kind of grin that you know you will see on her face when she’s fifteen, and just come up with something particularly clever.

How so much personality and depth of spirit can inhabit an infant, I will never know. It must have almost everything to do with God.

As I look into Kara’s eyes, still questionably hazel or brown, I know one thing.

The feeling that I have when our gazes lock is like a tiny explosion. It is pure, trusting, and innocent. It is quiet, and soft, and magnificent.

It is a feeling that can never be recreated. Not in pictures, not in videos, and not in memories. It lives here, and here only, and when the here and now are gone so is this feeling.

Yes, as our children grow, we continue to feel overwhelmed by love when we look at them, but there is something pretty special about those first staring contests between mother and child.

It is fleeting, and then gone.

    12 Comments on “Nothing can rival this feeling”

  1. Aw, what a cutie!

  2. Aw…I miss those days. The only staring contests I have with my 14 year old are when we’re arguing over how much money she can take to the mall!

  3. What a beautiful post!

  4. Lovely as always and she is sooo cute!

  5. She is beautiful. You are so right.

  6. I certainly know what you mean! Love how you described it!

  7. I’m not a mother – but dang, you are good at describing what it’s like. You are not good birth control for me…haha.

  8. OH My! What an adorable picture! She is beautiful!

  9. I remember when my oldest was just a baby… one day I looked into his eyes & this overwhelming feeling came over me like I had known him all my life. He was always meant to be mine. It’s definitely something you can’t capture with words or pictures. It’s the most amazing experience in the world.

    She looks sooo much like her brother btw. It’s incredible.

  10. Be still my heart… This post reminds me of the same experience I had with all three of my babies. My eldest is 12 now, but I still remember that look I see in Kara’s eyes, that were in my babies eyes. I sometimes think that I see it in my youngest’s, as we snuggle in bed and he tells me, “Mommy, I love you… you are my heart.”
    Kara, can’t talk yet, but she speaks volumes with those big beautiful eyes.
    Did I mention I want another?

  11. What a cute baby!!

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